#100happydays - I made it!

So what was the #100happydays all about? As I went through this journey, I was asked this question time and again. Let me share my thoughts.

Like most of you, I have had my share of ups and downs in life. Childhood was a very happy time, adolescence a little less and then as one grew into adulthood one went through stress, as one experienced several situations. I will admit that there were times when I was so stressed that I wondered if I would ever be happy again. 

Fortunately several things happened in my life - to make me experience happiness all over again. In the order in which things happened were

a) Stephen Covey's books
b) Sri Sri Ravishankars'- Art of Living Courses
c) Robin Sharma and Rhonda Byrne's books

If I had to put down the crux of all these, I would sum it up in two points

1) Happiness is a choice we can make
2) The more grateful we are for everything we have, the more happy we can be

Coming back to the #100happydays - first I must thank Dr Roshan Radhakrishnan and Gayatri Aptekar for letting me know about this challenge. Roshan had written a lovely piece about this in his blog. Both of them had me all motivated to take up this challenge. It meant that for 100 days - without a break, I had to write something that made me happy, and upload a picture about it. I chose to do this on Facebook

I honestly was not worried about completing it. The site http://100happydays.com/ (from which the idea originated) warns us that 71% of people who start, do not complete it. Having done a slightly more demanding version of this - while reading Rhonda Byrne's "The Magic" - (where there is a 27 day commitment - but more intense), this was really much easier, I felt!

And sure enough only one day, I could not post, because there was no Internet connectivity in that place where I was that day. So I posted two days posts together on the next day!

What was my experience during these 100 days? 
While I did not experience earth shattering changes or any specific strokes of extreme good luck, (not that I held any such expectation :>) there were two significant experiences I would like to share:

1) Lots of my friends on Facebook enjoyed these posts . They actually made it a point to tell me this! And that brought me a LOT of joy!! I am very sure that it has made *some* difference in their lives. 

2) There were days which were tough. My own health went for a bit of a toss in the last two weeks. That happened to my husband and mom in law too. And our maids and our driver. All at the same time! :) A close friend of mine has both parents ill. Worrying about them and her (the stresses she is going through) - can all be telling. 

BUT - when it has become a habit to "look for the good" - each day, it DEFINITELY makes the stresses lighter. No kidding. And it is easier to tell oneself "this too will pass". And that there are bigger forces that give us the strength to handle all stresses if we look for the strength and accept it. 

And then I must share two more things that have been like a miracle - at least I choose to see it that way, just as I choose happiness in every situation:

The first:
In the last week I started working on myself ... started noting down what all I wanted to do, to become a healthier person and work even more on my character and competence. This obviously means changing one's habits. And... I am sure everyone has experienced how TOUGH that can be! 

And guess what... a friend of mine - Swapnil Deorao Bawane happened to share on FB - just what I needed - "Transform your habits" an Ebook by James Clear

I strongly recommend this small 46 page E-book to anyone who wishes to change any habit. James Clear recommends that we do not focus on the results (the changed habit), but the process (the steps we need to take to change). And advises - that we make small and incremental process efforts at committed time frames. This he assures will make us arrive at the changed habit! 

(For example - starting with even 5-10 minutes of exercising / walking  2- 3 times a week and gradually increasing both time and frequency, makes a process change in us that helps us get fitter / trimmer. He assures us that in a few weeks, we will not be making efforts - it will happen as easily as brushing your teeth)!

The second:
I had for long, wanted to resurrect my blog - which - if you go through the archives, you will note is very sporadically updated. Well - I have done it now :) With this piece! 

And - with James Clear's advice - I now plan to make a commitment to write at a frequency that I will set, and write may be just short pieces first. The habit...at my set frequency will get me to be a regular blogger! 

Thanks again - Roshan and Gayatri! Thanks - Swapnil Bawane. And thanks to all those who told me they were inspired, and who actually have read every post during these 100 days  - Anujaa Navaratna, Maithili Karnad, Ramya Gollapudi, Roopal Parab ... and more  hope each one of you takes up the #100happydays and experience changes!! 

God bless! 

Mr Murphy joins me in my trip - Mumbai-Agra-Chennai-Mumbai

Murphy's law: "If anything can go wrong, it will"

So  the very same Mr Murphy sneaked in with me on my trip (I had to deliver a lecture in a pre-conference workshop on research methodology). I had to go to Agra via Delhi, then to Chennai and back. Of course I must admit that most of the time Mr Murphy was reasonably well behaved, but he did keep doing bits of "Tamasha" off and on. :)

Actually, he started it even before my trip. I have a niece in Agra. That was an attraction. An added attraction was that my niece has the friendliest 1.5 year old daughter. I think this baby thinks that the whole world is her friend. More about her later

When I told my niece I was coming, she was delighted and we had agreed that I would stay from Thursday afternoon (after my workshop) till Sunday. Soon, other plans crept in, and I had to be in Chennai on Saturday. So I told her "Sorry - one day less". And then it turned out that there were no suitable flights to Chennai if I left Agra on Saturday morning, so I had to cut out one more day. My niece said "As long as you don't cancel it, that's fine"!

I set off out on Wednesday. I landed in Delhi at 1.20 PM - earlier than the scheduled time, thanks to the 'Indigo Standard Time' that the airlines loves to talk about. Two doctors from Kolkata joined me in exactly half hour and we set off by a pre-arranged car for the 4-5 hour ride to Agra. For no reason at all, I had imagined that the new expressway (it is about 2 years old now) made the trip as short as 3.5 hours, and I was surprised when the driver said it would take about five hours. He obviously knew why it would. He had planned it with Mr Murphy :) He stopped at some place just before the express way, mumbling "I will just be back". The "just" turned out to be a little over half hour. He came back and we continued. We later had another break for tea, and so it did indeed take us five hours!

The two doctors were booked in one hotel and I was booked in another - Hotel Japyee Palace, the venue of the conference. Dr L who had arranged for my booking (she was arriving later that night) had written an email - "If there is any problem, please contact Mr. S, and he will help you". I guess Mr. Murphy had some inclination about Dr L's mail and took advantage of it. When I reached the hotel and gave details, there indeed was a problem :). So I called Mr. S, had to wait for about ten minutes and in spite of Mr Murphy, it got sorted out.

Hotel Jaypee Palace is shaped like a quadrilateral - with gardens inside. My room was reachable with a reasonably short walk, (realized that much later) but the young executive who escorted me, must have also had a pact with Mr. Murphy. Or - he must have thought..."this lady does not exercise enough"! And took me by the longest route possible. By the time I reached my room, my husband called. And I told him "Dear, I have made up for missing my morning walk today". He very gallantly said "Maybe you should stay on there for some time".

And then, having settled in, I decided that I was not getting out any more and opened the room service menu. I glanced through and decided to order only the Amritsari Paratha (everything else seemed to be just too expensive, whoever was paying. And I knew that I alone would not be able to finish it, which meant that food would be wasted). Usually any restaurant serves at least cut onions, some raita and/or a bit of vegetable with a paratha. When mine came, I had only some pickle as an accompanying dish :).  I told Mr Murphy - "Okay, I am going to relearn a lesson I learned... be happy with what you have. Do not crib about what you do not"! And I thought "That's one up to you, Mr. Murphy!"

As I got comfortable and was about to turn in for the night, Dr L. messaged me "Our workshop has been rescheduled from the  morning to the afternoon"!  Okay Mr Murphy - you won this round. My time with my niece was coming down to less than 12 hours.

The next morning, I caught up on a fair amount of work in my luxurious hotel room. Mr Murphy - I suspect you were tired and caught up with your sleep at this time and some more:). At lunch, I was thrilled to meet Drs Bhavin Jankharia and Ravi Ramakantan, who had come to conduct another workshop. They are both from my city of Mumbai, but I rarely get to meet them there :D. Having some time to catch up with them was indeed a bonus.

By now, Mr Murphy woke up. Our workshop was supposed to begin at 2.00 PM (One notice said 1.30 PM, another said 2.00 PM, so we gave the benefit of doubt and chose the latter). But... the people who were conducting the previous workshop must have bribed Mr. Murphy and they had no inclination to finish. We then told the young event managers to be firm and get them out, and they did! We got our hall by 2.30 PM. And - the next... we had a really low turnout. Dr L and the two others from Kolkata who had done a lot of work to organize this, felt really sorry, but obviously some of the work they had delegated to the main organizers had not been followed up. But, all of us enjoyed conducting the workshop and so did the small focused group of participants.

And then Mr Murphy must have thought - "I have had my main dish, (low turnout), but I need some dessert". And from the time I met my niece and family, went to their home and left it next morning, he really got some choicest dessert! The cab driver who had promised to take me back to Delhi the next day, suddenly backed out. (I wonder if the young Sardar, got to know about Mr Murphy's date with me, and was worried). Dr. A from Kolkata and Dr L spent a few hours alternately cajoling drivers, till one of them finally agreed :) And the next morning he landed at the Air Force base gate by 9.30 AM, though he was asked to report at 10 AM. And I thought - Aah , I have beaten Mr. Murphy at his game :)

Little did I know that he had to have his last laugh (well not quite, but I will come to the last, later). The driver called from the gate, as instructed, handed over his phone to the Sergeant who spoke with my niece and got her approval to send him in. But in a couple of minutes the driver called again and said that the Sergeant would not let him in. She quizzed him and learned that...... "the driver did not have his license!!!" (He had a substitute challan, but the Sergeant could not accept that. According to rules, he was supposed to keep the original license and give it back to the driver on his way out)

Okay Mr Murphy - you did have an additional helping of dessert :)

My niece then arranged to drop me at the gate and she remarked "Aunty - this driver looks like a kid". I told her that I could not care less if a new born dropped me to Delhi airport that day - I just had to get there :). To give him credit, young Vikas drove *very well* at a steady 80 kmph. He played old Hindi songs, taking care to lower the volume every time I had a phone call, and brought it down still more, when I dozed off for a bit. He got me to Delhi in exactly four hours.

"Aah - Mr Murphy - bye for now", I mumbled. "Huh," he said. "Are you kidding. I need to come all the way with you to Chennai and then back to Mumbai." I pretended not to hear that.

I got into Delhi T1 thinking that I had a good two hours to catch up on some reading. After all now, airports are declared silent - with no announcements. But I had not bargained for their doing a MAJOR renovation.  And the sound of drills going wheeeeee wheeeee all over, was what I had to put up with for the next couple of hours. Good bye my book!

I tucked into some sandwiches that my niece packed for me with love, and then thought of some coffee. Then I decided - "Indigo gives me black coffee at Rs 60/- and I am not getting milky coffee at double the price". Guess what happened in the flight??  When they started serving, there was some turbulence, the seat belt signs came on, and the stewardess announced "We regret we will not be serving hot beverages, due to turbulence".  I settled for Nimbu Paani (again telling myself to focus on what I got, instead of what I could not get).

I opened the bottle and took a sip, savouring the cold drink, telling myself "maybe this is better than coffee". And.... the seat belt sign goes off, and the stewardess opens the flask of hot water to serve another passenger.... you guessed it... black coffee! I could sense Mr Murphy having an expression of a 100% glee, thanking the hostess for not saying that she was not serving hot beverages only for a few minutes"

For the rest of the three hour flight, I practised not thinking about the coffee!

I reached Chennai and my little-less-than-two-days-stay there was great. I think the lovely weather  (something rare in Chennai) made Mr Murphy take a break. I even hoped that I would leave him there, but he somehow found me and quietly accompanied me on my Meru cab to the airport. For the first time I tried paying online through the app. It took some time for me to get the acknowledgement, by which time, the driver was politely impatient - telling me that if he stayed longer, he would cross the mandated 5 mins and get to pay a fine. I paid him in cash. Just as he got in and drove off, I received the acknowledgement :) :) Okay, okay Mr Murphy - I noticed you. You need not seek so much attention!

I got into the plane and set Meru an email explaining this and asking for a refund. They responded soon telling me they would. "Yay - Mr Murphy - you lost this one!" And I decided - "I am having nothing on this flight (I was full anyway, after a great family get together and lunch) - and I will not give you an opportunity for mischief here :)"

We landed in Mumbai early last evening, and the baggage arrived on to the belt before we did. In all the din in the baggage hall, I did not hear Mr. Murphy singing loud and clear "Vasu ma'm - I have saved the best for last" (Vanessa Williams, if you did not sing the song as well as you did, I would have hated it from yesterday :>)

I came out of the airport terminal. I called my driver. The call would not go through. He has a 2nd number and I called that. It rang and I disconnected it as is our usual protocol. He would drive to the pick up point as I walked out there. Suddenly my phone buzzed. It was his wife saying "Ma'm this phone is with me today. If you like I will call him for you". I said okay to her as I could not connect to his other number. To cut a long story short, no one could. His wife, my mother in law, my son and my husband (from Chennai!) - none could reach him.

I waited for a good 40 minutes, hoping he would at least think of coming and checking out, but apparently he did that just after I got into an auto :) Soon after I reached home, he called (from another phone), and my mom in law told him I had reached and asked him to return. Apparently he had a new cell phone, and had done some setting change, by which he could neither make nor receive calls! (I still have not figured out how he managed that, but he got it corrected this morning) :D :D :D, With that, Mr Murphy must have decided "enough is enough". I had a couple of hot dosas for dinner, had a lovely chat with my mom in law and turned in for the  night - back in my cosy bed!

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Epilogue: Had this happened to me about 10 years ago, I may have cribbed, raved and ranted at every step. Life has since taught me a lot, and I was able to laugh as things happened and as I related the set of events to people in the last couple of days. I was a teeny bit irked in Agra when the cab to Delhi was not getting organized, but that was only because I felt I could not get enough time with my adorable grand niece.

Let me add a bit about her. She was asleep when her parents came to pick me up at the hotel. When we reached home, she woke up. She saw me, gave a beaming smile and waved to me! I don't think I have seen too many toddlers wake up with a smile, less who smile at strangers, and only this one who smiled and waved. When her mom set her down, she chose to 'get into my shoes' - literally. She wore them and walked all over the house for the next half hour :). She spent the next three hours with me, chattering away in her own lingo. And the next morning, she woke up in time to yap some more and say "Bye" with another huge smile. God bless you little Raaga!

And finally - "thank you Mr Murphy, for the practice sessions! Without them, how could I know that I have learned all that I have read in wisdom literature, or heard from wise folks? I know for sure that I came out well. I am still beaming about the fact that so many things could happen unexpectedly and teach us to value all that happens right. Mr Murphy - does that make me a winner? I guess it does - but let me generously call you one too". After all life is all about Win-Win" 

The focused participants (the two in front were faculty)
- we hope they will change research!

                                                                                                          

My grand niece - stepping into my shoes - literally :)

A part of the Agra Fort - clicked from the cab!

Attack on doctors. Is the basic flaw that we are all getting increasingly judgemental about everything?

It started with Aamir Khan's Satyamev Jayate's episode on Medical Malpractice. The bashing of doctors. Well it obviously happened earlier too, but this was a big trigger. For patients (all health care receivers, sick or healthy) to start discussing how terrible doctors were. And for doctors to become anti Aamir Khan. Both may have been right within their perspectives. What are the long term outcomes of such episodes. I honestly do not know the patient perspective, but every now and then I see a doctor's post in Facebook, with an update about something that was not a doctor's fault, and it almost always ends with "Now Aamir Khan - where are you?" The hurt and hostility is high.

For those who do not know me, I am not a doctor. But I do work a lot with health professionals. I teach them how to stay updated with medical literature. I have, over about 20 years got to know about their lives in depth. I can reasonably confidently say that any lay person who does not have a doctor in their immediate family would have no real idea about what it takes to become a doctor. And almost always, when one of them makes derogatory or even generalized negative comments about doctors, I give him or her a gist of the toughest parts of a medical student's / doctor's life. And almost always the person's jaw drops.

The recent episode of the sterilization deaths is another incident that brings up muddy waters. The media bashing doctors. And the doctors retaliating. When it was first reported, I paid practically no attention to the news. I must add, that in the last few years, I have more or less stopped reading newspapers. I cannot stand the mass-negativity and the "news for the sake of news" items that are being published (predominantly rapes, murders, violence, cheating and the like). I believe that the news I really need to know will find me. Either via my husband or through social media. Anything else I need to know in context is traceable through the Internet (being a search specialist helps!). Or again through social networking, where I ask and get an answer.

When there was one of the shows on TV where the issue was being hotly debated, I still did not know enough. In fact my husband actually thought I was nuts, not keeping abreast of something about the beneficiaries of my work. And then, the Facebook statuses of several medicos gave me answers - all linked to resources that mentioned the faulty medicines. By then the media had bashed the doctor concerned. Badly. Okay - later they talked about the faulty medicines. The 'bashed doctor' may become old news. But some things have long term repercussions.

I am not going into the complete details of this episode of the mass sterilizations. In fact when I write this post my focus is not so much about doctors and patients, but more about about what I believe is a common trait among most of us, that leads to such situations in any context. And that trait is...

Most of us are judgemental most of the time!

I say this after a few months of observation. Sometime back a friend on Facebook challenged himself and others. "Can we stay without a) complaining and b) being judgemental for one or  more days"? I started observing myself. I noted that without realizing I was being judgemental very very often. I may not have always verbalized it, but I still was. I have been working on it ever since.

How does this relate to Satyamev Jayate or the current sterilization fiasco? Aamir Khan - if he had only presented facts and asked for opinions *may not* have raised so much animosity. He was being judgemental (and I felt that in this show he was being more judgemental than in the other episodes, but that is my observation and not my judgement). In the current scenario - the media jumped on to being judgemental, with headlines like "Botched sterilizations claim 56 lives" or with details that nailed the doctor. Earlier in another case a lawyer made a comment "We have all at some time suffered in the hands of doctors". Just yesterday, I heard a milkman tell our building watchman about how he had to spend a lot of money going to a doctor for a fever. And he said (in Hindi) - "I wonder how doctors are made today"!

Aren't all these statements judgemental / highly generalized, when made without proper research and evidence? Okay - there ARE bad doctors. But that does not mean that all are bad!

And what is the consequence of all this? However well Aamir Khan may do his other episodes of SJ, he has lost the support of a lot of doctors - including good ones. Rural women who need healthcare will not go to doctors even if good ones are around. Worse still, they will now be so scared of sterilization procedures that they are going to either keep bearing more kids or spoil their health further, or maybe both. In my building, the watchman told the milkman "Don't go to a doctor if you have fever.. there is no need"! I shudder to think of what more can happen. 

I recently came across an expansion for THINK, which is worth thinking about. Think before you speak...

T- Is what you are saying True?

H - is it Helpful?

I - is it Inspiring?

N - is it Necessary (to say it out)?

K - is it Kind?

More about this here

I believe that if we even apply only the T, H and N, we'd be doing a lot.

And let us focus on talking about the good doctors we know. There are plenty of them, working silently and doing tons of good for their patients. If we really count there will always be more of the good ones - not just doctors, but people from any profession. Stop and think - for every bad professional or person you know - how many good ones you do. In majority of cases, I am sure you will know more of good souls.

Now, am I generalizing? :) Yes, I am. But that's fine, when it is about good stuff!

My journey into Evidence Based Medicine and Cochrane Reviews

I was a medical librarian in the PD Hinduja National Hospital & Medical Research Centre, Mumbai in the 1990s, when we first subscribed to Medline on CD-ROM. We got the sanction for the subscription in 1994, after two years of proposals, discussions with 'the management' and more.

In 1994-95 I did everything to learn all about searching Medline effectively. At the back of my mind, I always had the query - how would a doctor actually figure out which of the abstracts and articles would be most useful? There were times when the search results were conflicting. Some abstracts would give certain facts and others (from equally reputed journals) would give almost opposite facts (for example about the comparative efficacy of two drugs). Some young doctors even asked me whether there were any criteria to decide. I of course knew nothing about it, and all I could tell them was that maybe we needed to see which journal / author was more reputed, and base the decision on such factors.

In 1996 I was librarian of HELP - a Consumer Health library. Here we had access to the Internet and  I became a member of the Medlib-L mailing list, which had a large number of medical librarians. I first heard of Cochrane Reviews and of course understood exactly nothing about them. Cochrane was then a fairly new concept. There was so much more to learn about online medical information that I did not do much about Cochrane

In 2000, I attended the ICML - the International Congress on Medical Librarianship, in London. This was the first time I attended an international conference. I was super-excited. Looking through the website, I skimmed through the preconference workshops and one called "Critical Appraisal Skills" caught my eye. "Aha" I thought. "Now I will learn how to choose the most relevant of search results I can choose once I do a good Medline search". I registered for the Basic Course and not the Advanced one, because each course cost 50 Pounds :)

It was after I attended this half day workshop, I realised that there WAS a method for searching for Evidence based publications and it was after we retrieved these, that we could actually appraise them. I learned the basics of appraisal in this course. On my return to India, I searched to check if there was any online course on finding evidence. I was thrilled to find one for librarians - "searching the literature for evidence based medicine" I enrolled for it right away (paying $150 then. The same course costs a lot more today) It was conducted by three librarians in the US. It was one we could do at our pace, and if I remember, I completed it in 4 weeks and also got 10 Credit Points (which were really applicable for US librarians). And thus I made my baby steps into searching for evidence.

Soon I started exploring the Cochrane Library. At first it made no real sense to me. (There was no one to explain it, you see). And the only thing that struck me was that majority of the reviews' abstracts had a conclusion that said "there is no clear evidence about......" And so I felt - abstracts in PubMed have stronger conclusions. Maybe it is better to stick to those!!

In 2007, I was introduced to Dr Prathap Tharyan of CMC Vellore. (He had then just set up the South Asian Cochrane Centre). We had a brief discussion and made some random "future plans" of working together. I was added to their mailing list. I used to keep getting emails about "Protocol Writing Workshops for Cochrane Systematic Reviews". And the only line that caught my eye every time was "This workshop is open to those who have registered a title for a Cochrane Review". And I felt - "I am never going to do this one"!

Year 2008 - and there was an Evidence Informed Symposium organized by the SACN. I registered for this one, and was delighted to see one of the sessions was on Navigating the Cochrane Library. I attended this one, conducted by Ruth Foxlee (who I met again years later in 2011 and again this year), and her colleague. This was an eye opener and I finally learned what a Cochrane Review was about, and what the other five databases were about!

2010 - time for another symposium at CMC. This time Dr. Prathap organized a two hour session for UG students on all four days and I had the opportunity to do the session on searching the literature! This event brought me close to a group of students and at the end of the symposium when we all had discussions with Dr. Prathap, he encouraged all to attend the next Protocol Writing workshop. I asked him "Can I attend this, more as an observer"? And he said "Yes". Little did I know what I was in for.
Came February and I went to Vellore with all excitement. The workshop was for five days. On the first day, he made the fundamentals of a Cochrane Review even clearer. Actually crystal clear. But as days progressed, the dreaded statistics and more came in. When we reached the fourth day, I was all ready to quit. However, the psychiatrist in Prathap played up and he did all he could to make out as if I were the bravest soul around and I would definitely make it through, till the end :).

Manu Mathew, Ravi Ranjan (two students of Kasturba Medical College at that time; now qualified doctors) and I registered a title. We worked hard on it for two years and finally had to withdraw the review. At another point, I was invited by another group to be part of a Cochrane Review, and this one too fizzled out. By this time I had also attended the same workshop two more times and almost gave up about every getting through a review. However I did sharpen my searching skills. And I delivered talks on how to navigate the Cochrane Library in three ICMR centres in India. I have also included an introduction to Cochrane Reviews in all my lectures on literature searching.

And then, finally about a year ago, one more title happened and this week (November 2014) it has turned into a published Cochrane Review!

Gene therapy for hemophilia

1. Akshay Sharma^,*, 
2. Manu Easow Mathew,
3. Vasumathi Sriganesh, 
4. Jessica A Neely,
5. Sasank Kalipatnapu

What was my role in it? I am not an expert on the topic. But I did play a significant role in the literature searching, and coordinated with librarians in the US to ensure that I did good strategies. I went through the whole text thoroughly and commenting on part of the content. I played a role on how to reference everything right. I also managed to find a couple of technical errors and get them rectified. Slowly the Cochrane Methodology - the nitty gritty of it is sinking in. Psst - I still refused to touch the statistical bits :>.  I have miles to go. This is a beginning!

Thanks Prathap Tharyan for egging me on every time I was ready to give up!  Thank you Akshay for inviting me to be part of this review. Thanks to the other co-authors - I learned bits and pieces from all your work.

Aside from bravely being one of the authors of a Cochrane Review, I have attended two Colloquia - one in Madrid in 2011 and one this year in Hyderabad (2014). The learning escalates with every such event and I hope it continues. This year, Dr Paul Garner of the Effective Health Care Research Consortium asked me if I were supporting more authors and I said "not yet, because I need more mentoring". And he promised to put me in touch with a mentor. As I said - there is lots more to learn - miles to go!

My message to medical librarians  and to the Institutional heads in India is - "Librarians have a huge role to play in helping authors from India, with systematic reviews. We need to find a way of training lots more librarians to learn more and more, step by step.

Don't crib. Do something about it!

I got inspired to write this post after two events.

- One was when I listened to a talk by Ashwin Mahesh. His key message is "We need to build a problem solving society together. Everything else is secondary".

- The other - I read a blog post by Bhavin Jankharia titled - The top 10 things we can do to help Mr Modi Reboot to India 2.0. I strongly recommend that everyone reads the blog post and visits Ashwin Mahesh's website

Let me admit - I had been a cribber for pretty long. A lot of which happened because it is also fashionable to crib. It is easy to do it. And if we add analysis and researched facts into our act of cribbing, we also sound intelligent. We believe that we are having intellectual discussions.

Over the years I learned to do something about things I cribbed about. If I could not do anything about it, I learned to accept situations / things / people. Accepting does not mean that the people / situations are right. Accepting is just acknowledging. And being open to the idea that they CAN be changed. One thing that I refuse to do, is to think "this can never change/improve". 

So - if we wish to crib - let us ask ourselves - Can we...

• Do something about it right away or in a short time?
• Research and see what can be done in a longer time span?
• If none of the above seem possible just now - support others who are doing something? 
• Give them some time to achieve something?
• Not criticize them if they make mistakes?

Let us get responsible enough to do something, support others - directly or indirectly - by not criticizing every effort of theirs. If we can do neither, let us learn to shut up and do something else productive!

UCMS Delhi - Lecture and Workshop

I was invited to Delhi for two events early this month. The venue was the University College of Medical Sciences, Delhi. I delivered a lecture on Literature Searching at the Quarterly meeting of the Indian Association of Pathologists & Microbiologists, Delhi Chapter. There were about 50-60 members in the audience at the start and in a short while it shot up to a little more than 150! A large number were PGs and faculty from other colleges in Delhi too. It does feel good to have reached out to such a large number, even if they "took away" only the "tip of the tip of the icerberg" that I'd loved to have shared with them!

PGs of UCMS and more...after the event IAPM event

 

 

 

 

The next day was an exciting one :). The Medical Education Unit had invited participation from PGs in the institution and later opened it to all interested. So we had a range - from 3rd Sem students to Professors! The nicest part was that they sat in mixed groups for group activities.We started at 9 am sharp and went on till 1.15 PM. 

I always enjoy every workshop I do. (Okay to be extremely honest - except for *some* of the industry sponsored ones... but let us leave that out from here).  But, there was something different here. There were UG students / Interns who knew some bits better than their seniors and were faster, but they did not have to be scared of being better. This is not always the scenario in an Indian medical college. Younger people could even tease the older people - yes faculty included and it was all part of the game. No one offended any one; every one helped the other.. and there was good learning. 

One young friend Pranab Chatterjee (First year PG) had attended my lecture about a year ago. At that time his feedback was "I just realized that I have been using PubMed the way a caveman used the hammer in the Paleolithic era". (I always loved this one and even used it in a poster I presented!) During the break I asked him "So how much of today was new learning"? And my dear friend says "Let me put it this way. Till this morning, I thought I knew all about PubMed". PC - more than your feedback, it is the way you give it to me that is so endearing! And to top it up, when you cover the workshop so well in your blog, that is like icing on the cake :)

With Pranab... QMed (and I) need you guys to promote our cause!

Other stuff that made me feel great about this event was

a) Rajat Thawani - an intern who was assigned to arranging for "break-snacks" ensured that they spent just enough to keep people from feeling hungry. It is so different from the regular "focus on food" that often happens at CMEs

b) Dr Navjeevan Singh (my colleague calls him "one of the best friends of QMed") did a great job of telling people all about QMed before the event

c) Dr Satendra Singh Phalswal who knew a lot about PubMed and has done workshops at UCMS, earlier lent support. I wish I could spend more time with him working together!

d) There were three librarians attending the workshop!

e) Many Facebook friends' email ids became faces :)

Overall - a big thanks to every individual who attended - you were all great fun!

I cannot help mention my fabulous hosts Dr Navjeevan Singh and his wife Dr  Upreet Dhaliwal - both faculty members of UCMS who hosted me in their home. If I look like I've put on a couple of kilos in the pics here, it is thanks to their awesome hospitality and care :)

Oh - and on the travel bit... I just about made it to my return flight.. thanks to the Pre-Diwali shopping crowd as well as some other rally that caused miserable traffic jams. 
And - I was about 6 days too early to miss an excitement in the "To Delhi" flight. (Six days later - the same Indigo flight had a passenger who caused security problems). Aaah - thank God for small mercies!

UCMS - I hope I get more opportunities to come out there!

Group activity

Dr Upreet with two PGs

Dr Navjeevan Singh multitasking - supervision plus clicking pics!

With Dr Upreet and Dr Satendra

Thrissur - Kerala - teaching Principals and teachers

I was invited by the Kerala University of Health Sciences (located in Thrissur, Kerala) to do a whole day workshop on literature searching on On October 31, 2012

The Travel

Travelling to Thrissur was a reasonably long act - flight to Kochi and then a 1.5 hour drive (of course that is like driving from Mumbai airport to the city area during peak hours). This time, I had the added mini excitement of driving from the Mumbai airport terminal to the aircraft which was in the International Airport area. We went "all the way" there only for our bus driver to discover that he took us to the wrong aircraft and to get us all the way back to the domestic terminal!

Then came a positive surprise. Nothing important, but fun and a "convenient one". The flight I was booked on was a Jet Airways one, with a 4-digit flight no. I could not even do a web check in - so I assumed it was a Jet Konnect flight. But it later was mysteriously renumbered to 3-digits. The "convenient/fun" surprise was that I got free breakfast. Sounds kiddish, but I do appreciate the convenience. And somehow, most often I feel that the food charged for on most flights are actually bad.

The ride to Thrissur was green, green and more green - something I adore about Kerala and that belt.

In Thrissur, I was put up in a small hotel near the University. It felt like a cross between an uppity hostel and a cosy home. The couple in charge were almost like hosts. The lady could speak only Malayalam, but she was full of smiles and chattered away. She actually asked me when I would come back next :)

The Workshop - And a Very Personal Experience

My workshop was on the next day. Now here was something that touched a chord in my heart. One of the faculty members picked me up at 9.25 am and drove me to the venue (a five-min ride). The Dean Research received me and escorted me to the hall where I would be speaking for the first hour (and later moving to the E-library for the hands-on sessions).

As soon as I walked in to the hall (I entered first), the audience stood up!!

And no - it was not an audience of students. Majority were senior faculty and six of them were Principals of Medical Colleges! Okay - granted that age wise I may be closer to the "senior" folks. But this was something I had not expected and I was completely caught off my guard! Deep inside my heart I am a medical librarian. And Principals would have been my bosses if I worked in a Medical College. Which means I would be the one standing up if they walked into an area where I was sitting!

I must admit that for a moment I was embarrassed and then regained composure, smiled brightly and said good morning to all and shook hands with one person I knew.

Now why did I specifically mention this incident here? One of the fairly regular points of discussion amongst librarians is their "status". They are right. Our profession, in my opinion too, is very very often not given the status it deserves.

I do not wish to go into details or even encourage a debate on this. All I am saying is that the problem of status has two angles - the "system problem" and a "personal angle" . As an individual, I know that I have reached the day when I get respected by seniors / people in positions / people with far higher qualifications and more. They value what I know and the work I do, and treat me as an equal. If I had only cribbed and lamented, I obviously would be ignored, leave alone being respected.

Of course my being treated with respect or as an equal, does not solve the status problem. I would love to do lots more to solve it. But apart from the "system factors", what is needed is that we (medical) librarians need to do two more things:

a) We need to "move" towards working "with" students and health professionals to help them solve information problems. This by working with them, and also constantly upgrading our knowledge in the field
b) We need to "let them know" about our abilities. And understand that they do not know many things that we know (which is not a bad thing!)

Unless we change these communication issues, status is going to remain a problem!


The Workshop - the actual session/s

Coming back to the program, after an initial lecture on the theory of information and its retrieval, we had pretty intense hands on exercises cum problem solving sessions. The whole group was extremely enthusiastic and worked really hard at learning. That was something! And again, I need to stress that the participants accepted that I was the teacher/expert and gave their all. I am sure no one thought about status at this point!

I must add some other good things that happened here. One was that the librarian of KUHS was extremely keen to learn anything more than he already knew (which was a pretty good deal). And the faculty of the  University discussed a lot about how to take these programs ahead. Kudos to the VC and the Dean Research and their team for organizing the event and for their interest in taking things ahead!

PS - For those not from India - we have a custom of standing up when a teacher / older person walks into a class / room

Medical literature searching - What it is and what it is NOT

Medical literature searching is NOT about locating full text articles to "plug in" a list of references at the end of anything that you wrote. It is the task of locating whatever has been published on a topic you seek information about or related to any writing or documenting you are doing. Once you get references and/or abstracts, locating full text articles is a logistical activity and NOT a search activity.
Vasumathi Sriganesh

Long bus ride within a city after years...

Today I had a long commute in a BEST Bus (BEST is Mumbai's city transport system), - a ride of about 1-1/4hours. Thane to Andheri to be specific. I have done shorter rides like office to home, but a long ride like this has been after ages.

During my student days in Chennai, I was an authority on the bus-systems of the city. I simply loved the "freedom" of being able to go wherever I wanted to, thanks to what used to be an awesome public transport system, if you did not count the peak hours that were something like 8.30 am - 10 am and then again 5 pm  - 7 pm. (In the recent years I believe things have changed there too, and almost all hours of the day seem like peak hours!). Apart from my college trips, I would go visiting uncles / aunts / cousins / friends, and then my trips to the British Council Library, American Centre Library etc. Movies were a rarity for two reasons - a) Money (or the lack of it) and b) Permissions :>.  Yes, in the 1970s it was quite a task to get permission to go for a movie!

Back to bus rides, the best thing was that one almost had a vehicle at one's disposal, sans the task of maintaining it! And since I knew the frequencies and timings of most buses that I took, commuting was never a tough thing.

Today I had the advantage of getting into the bus at the starting point. And it was a Saturday. I had a choice of window seats to pick. The bus had reasonable crowds for part of the ride, but for most of it, it was pretty empty. Oh and the bus brought me pretty close to home too. If it were evening I would have walked back, but because it was noon, and a rickshaw driver actually agreed to come short distance, I grabbed that.

But in the end, the best part of today was - "reliving the sense of freedom". It seems almost silly. I am one of the lucky humans who has tons of freedom in my life. And I did not exactly have that during my student days, with a reasonably strict, orthodox grandmom at home :). And yet - the bus ride reminded me of the "special freedom" of those days. Fond memories :)

Few pics taken at Gadchiroli / SEARCH

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 6 - last day - Part 2

After breakfast, I went to the Reseach Dept and in the next couple of hours managed a short meeting with the librarian - Ms. Rina and then spent some time with the available interns and staff in the dept. Some of them cleared doubts they had in literature searching and Mendeley. Soon it was time for goodbyes and a couple of photographs. And then I had a final meeting time with Dr Abhay Bang. Dr Yogesh, Mr Mahesh and Ms Rina joined us. Dr Bang once again asked me what I felt they should do to promote a reading culture. (I forgot to mention that in his home, I noted an array of magazines ranging from general to business titles. Later in Dr Rani's book, I figured that he was an avid reader of all topics and had introduced some to her). I deeply appreciate his passion for reading and more importantly his concern to introduce this. I suggested that since his library has books for kids, they should "start early" and have story time sessions for kids on the campus and also encourage children to tell stories - from the books they read.

For adults - I suggested that since they regularly bought books, they should circulate by email a list of "new books" and encourage a book club, where once in a month people verbally share a book review of anything they read. Since they were already doing regular journal clubs, this would be a lighter version of the same thing.

We discussed some more ideas about the library and shared some thoughts about what QMed could do for SEARCH and vice versa.

And then he said "Vasumathi, I really thank you for your visit. Very few people go anywhere 'just to explore and figure out what to do'. I appreciate your efforts. I would like you to come over anytime. And I would specially be happy if you come over to do training programs for our Nirman fellows who are doctors. Everyone here gave good feedback about your sessions. And finally I must say that you are doing excellent work as a medical librarian - it is rare to find someone like this. I wish you all the best"
It is difficult to express what I felt. To get appreciated and praised for work from someone who has made amazing social changes coupled with hard core research, was something!

A quick lunch followed. The cab to Nagpur airport was ready. Three people who had to go to Nagpur to travel further accompanied me. We reached Nagpur well in time for my flight and then it was back home.

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 6 - last day - Part 1 - Breakfast with Dr Bang and family

When I woke up on Sat (15th), I felt: "The last day of my trip is here. As it often appears to happen, it seems to have arrived before I realized it"!

I tried to catch up on emails before joining the Bang family for breakfast, but the Internet played truant again. Luckily I managed to send out one important email. At 8 am I went to Dr Bang's residence. A lovely home, with a nice balcony and a garden. Dr Rani Bang was sitting on a bamboo seat swing. We chatted for a few minutes and then went in for breakfast with Dr Bang and son Dr Anand. Amrut the younger son was out travelling on work.

Over a breakfast of "Pesarattu Dosa" (a South Indian delicay that I love and never make) and some awesome sweet sour hot mango jam to go with it, Dr Bang asked me which medical colleges in Mumbai, I felt were more open to or encouraged interest in research amongst students. Now that was tough for me to answer! So I told him that my answer would be pretty biased because I simply had lots more interactions at KEM and some at Nair. But I told him that I would try to find out slowly and steadily with interactions.

Then he made a special mention about Medicon - as he had attended Medicon 2012 (hear this INFORMER members..) - saying "I was very impressed by the conference, the interest amongst students, Dr Deo starting such an initiative and ICMR supporting it". (Earlier on the first day he asked me how I was invovled with Medicon and I told him about QMed's association with INFORMER). He then told me "I am really happy that you are so involved with the student community and doing all you can to help and guide them.

And then he and Dr.Anand needed to leave to start work. Dr Rani and I chatted for some time more and then she gifted me her book "Putting Women First" - one that she had written with two other co-authors. While we chatted we found an interesting common factor - she and I were much more "people oriented" while our respective spouses were awesome with numbers. My visit ended with an invitation from her to bring my family and visit again. (I did not tell her that I had innumerable adopted kids, lest she changed her mind) :D

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 5 - Part 1

Rose a little later today. Maybe I feel settled in :)  Talking of feeling settled, before I left Mumbai for this trip, my husband asked me with a glint of humour in his eyes - So are you planning to settle there"? And I said something like "If you come along I will".

Yesterday Kalindi, the statistician intern asked me "How do you like it here". I said  I'm loving it. But I really don't know how I would feel if I had to live here for a long time".  I then said "I know that if I had to, I would settle in and be happy, because it is my basic nature to adapt and settle anywhere". As I think about it, (even after a night's sleep), I guess today's answer is "My knowledge and expertise is about searching / referencing and some areas of research and writing. And I have family in the city. I would do my best to contribute to the section of society that needs me, by living with my family, in the city and travelling where I need to. BUT, if for some reasons of destiny I had to (or maybe choose to) live in Gadchiroli or any similar place, I would look at doing all I can to contribute in that surrounding and make a choice to be happy there".

As I said, that is today's answer. Life may bring changes in me that may change my answer someday. I dont know. Why worry about that anyway? :)

But I would like to add - I think all youngsters especially medicos, (those in the field of Community Medicine field - definitely, but all medicos for sure), should consider doing a stint here. Rural postings that you normally do, as I have understood seem like a farce (I maybe saying it wrongly; forgive me if I do) to many of you. Here you will see a planned and research cum service oriented program and get to work with as much professionalism as anywhere else. And the variety of people here in the SEARCH campus makes for stimulating discussions and interactions. Yes even IIT engineers and others are doing stuff here. I would even suggest - enrol in a NIRMAN program. It would be one of the best events in your life.

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 4

Again an early day. Up at 4.30 AM and did Yoga, Kriya and Meditation. And also a half hour walk. Felt wonderful. The place has been cool throughout. Soon after breakfast of yummy Sabudana Khichdi, did my first "Introduction to Literature Search" session for about nearly 20 people. And then today till the evening session at 4.30, I had the day to myself. So managed to catch up on emails (and the blog of course) and also spent some time planning specific examples and exercises for the evenign session. The 4.30 pm session had a slightly smaller attendance, as some people had work and could not get back. But the participants were supremely active and followed things with complete attention. During the day Kalindi, a statistician checked out some more stuff with me  and learned about some statistics tutorial site as well as critical appraisal sites. At the end she asked me "when are you coming back here?" That felt good :)

The evening prayer session had a relatively larger crowd. Several villagers were in for some residential training  so the campus was buzzing with people. It was also the birthday of one of the physiotherapists and was celebrated with an Aarti. Very beautiful!

I also got to hear that Dr Bang had written a book in Marathi (recently translated to Hindi too) about his reflections after his heart attack and angioplasty. One of the interns told me about it. It really seemed incredible that someone who lives in a surrounding like this with no pollution and with all the right habits should have had this. It finally boiled down to the stress that he went thru in setting up Shodhgram. The campus and the work may seem awesome to the visitor or anyone who works. But if one reflects on the absolute awesome responsibility that it carries it is no joke. I do hope that he and Dr Rani Bang have excellent health for several more years. Gadchiroli needs their leadership. And India needs the examples.

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 3 - Part 2

The afternoon, I had to myself. Most of it without an internet connection. I took some time off to show Mr Mahesh (Head of Research) the reference management tool Mendeley - www.mendeley.com. He loved it and asked me if I would also show it to the rest of the team and I agreed. At about 5 PM I had a discussion with Dr Anand Bang, Dr Yogesh and all involved in any kind of research work. We had a discussion about what their information needs were and where they hit roadblocks. This was a prelude to my doing some sessions for them. We decided that we'd have at least three one hour sessions in the next two days and then do anything more as required. I then had a chat with the two young doctors over a cup of tea. Both of them having trained in the US were able to understand QMed's plans and problems and expressed great delight in our work.

The evening prayer session had its regular features. And then there was a small discussion on prayers. Dr Rani Bang shared that some time back Dr Abhay needed an angioplasty. And there were people who asked her how she believed in prayers when she should have a more scientific approach. She answered that it was because of group prayers everyday that SEARCH continued to function inspite of their absence. Food for thought!

Later at dinner I had some "question - answer" sessions (they asked; I answered :>) with a young doctor qualified from Sion hospital who now works here, couple of interns from TISS and later another young doctor who qualifed from Grant Medical College. I had a fairly intense discussion about libraries in Mumbai and India with the latter. It was great to see so much interest. Incidentally both young doctors seem to love being here in Shodhgram, working in the villages and doing research. This seemed to be exactly what Dr Bang mentioned during the panel discussion at Medicon 2012 earlier this year -when he said "Rural service should be properly channelised into a learning experience for medical students and young doctors"

As I finish writing this (offline, to be copy / pasted into the blog when the Internet is available tomorrow), I realize it is 10.20 PM. I did not nod off at 9.30. I feel wide awake and energized. Is it due to Anjanabai? Is it due to the discussions today? Or am I filled with the regular excitement of training sessions for tomorrow? I really don't know :)

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 3 - Part 1

Got up at 5 am all fresh. Well, considering that I had nearly 8 hours of sleep, I'd better have done that :) Managed a full hour of Yoga, Kriya and Meditation, something that I wish I could discipline myself to do everyday, but do not manage it :(. Am hoping that two more days here gets me into it.

Immediately after breakfast I set off with a team of four people from Save the Children Foundation for a village site visit - to a village called Bodhli - 5 km from here. We were taken by Dr Paranjpe - not a medical doctor, but an expert in IPR. What does he do here? He works in the area of scaling up various areas of SEARCH's activities. How did he land up here? A few years back he visited the place. And in a year's time came to work with Dr Bang - in his own words "doing anything he can for SEARCH".

We reached the village and went to the home of an Arogyadoot (translated - it means messenger of health and wellness) - Anjanabai. She has been trained by SEARCH to handle several health problems of the residents of the village and then specially for the Home Based New Born and Child Care program. She told us how she was selected. SEARCH being sensitive to local needs, first takes a consent from the village leaders and then the families concerned. This lady's mother in law registered her for the first level training, where they are assessed for suitability of the program. She later went through more rigorous training. She demonstrated with absolute confidence, using a doll, as to how she cleaned a baby within 30 seconds of birth and if there were birth asphyxia problems, how she did suctioning and used an ambu bag to help it breathe. She also showed us various records she kept. What was her education level? She had studied upto the 7th Std!

She then took us to the home of family where a young girl had delivered a baby a few days back. She gave us a brief demonstration of how she checked on the mother by asking her about her diet, sleep etc and also about the baby. Then she showed us how she weighed the baby and did an overall checking. All this is done on several days during the 28 day neonatal period when there is a maximum chance of infection and illness mainly due to the surroundings and overall low socioeconomic background.

There is lots more information about this in the SEARCH website about the models and successes. My feelings at the end of this visit can be summarised as:

a) The young mothers and neonates in Gadchiroli get far better care than their counterparts in urban areas (especially the urban poor) thanks to numerous visits by a trained healthcare worker.

b) And if only the people in the rural areas got the right kind of education and training, there are enormous capabilities all hidden in there. Anjanabai's poise and confidence and her obvious efficiency in the healthcare she provided was a clear indication of this.

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 2 - Evening

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 2 - Evening

Today's evening prayer session's focus (after the regular sessions) was on Acharya Vinoba Bhave as it happened to be his birth anniversary. Dr Bang spoke a little about his philosophies and specially about the last week of his life. Acharya Vinobaji apparently knew he was dying and he refused interventions because he had indications from the Lord above that he had done all that he was meant to do in this life. He explained that all of us tend to hold on to our bodies at any cost, but however we need to find the balance between doing what we should (medical care and more) and accepting that our lives do come to an end and we need to learn to let go. Something that is not too easy

After dinner at 8.15, I once again hit the sack at 9.30.

Trip to Shodhgram - Day 2

I expected to be up at 4 AM thanks to crashing at 9.30 PM. Surprisingly though I did wake up, I went back to sleep right away and managed a couple of snoozes of the alarm that I set for later. The sound of the rains had some magic lullaby that made me have some glorious sleep. The main sounds that one hears in the campus are the chirping of the birds. Occasionally a car or a bike vrooms around, but that is really rare.

Breakfast at 7.45 and then I was in the research dept by 8.30. The good news is that the Internet lines are back, and am finally connected back with the world :)
I guess I get a real time lesson on gratitude, after experiencing how the Internet connectivity keeps vanishing and reappearing with amazing regularity. How much we take for granted in a city like Mumbai!

Anyway - my day got kind of scheduled. A very brief visit to the library. Then an orientation session in the afternoon along with some others who are going through it too. And a preliminary sesson on searching in the early evening. In between I get to do what I want :)

At around 10.30 we were all invited to the main entrance of Shodhgram where there is the "Ma Danteshwari temple". SEARCH just got a new vehicle - Tavera - with support from the State Bank of India. Dr Abhay Bang performed a small pooja and broke a coconut. Dr Rani Bang thanked the SBI for their support and said that this would be mainly used for transport of patients with back pain. I was told that every event is celebrated with maximum participation from all here. Every birthday is celebrated with a mix of tradition and modern customs. The birthday girl or boy is made to sit and Dr Rani performs an Arti with a Pooja thali. And then people sing Happy Birthday. One more example of a small action feeding the passion?

At around 11 am I got to visit the library . The lady in charge was on leave and another gentleman received me. Again I was pleasantly surprised to see a computerized catalog and Issue-Return system, all created in house - by Mr Mahesh of the Research Dept. The collection in this library caters to an audience right from the children in the campus to all professionals. I discussed certain possibilities for further improvement he was happy to hear them. We decided to take these points up again when the librarian was back.  The library obviously warmed the heart of the librarian in me, but more importantly the fact that the people who looked after it, and the people responsible for SEARCH are constantly giving their minds to how a library should serve them!

Post lunch I got to listen to presentations on the Home Based Neonatal and Childcare model, along with a team of abuot 12 from another NGO - "Save the Children. The presentations were par excellence - one by Mr Tushar Khorgade and the second by Dr Anand Bang.

Tomorrow will be a field visit. I would be going with four members of the Save the Children Foundation and there will be two more groups. Waiting to experience this!

Part 2 - In Shodhgram - Day 1 - the evening hours

Ever since I reached here the mobile and Internet networks were down. The mobile got restored after a while, but apparently Airtel does not work here so I get a first hand experience of "not being wired" :). For the rest of my stay here - there will be no mobile connectivity for me

So I got some time to do all this blog catching up. (I did it all in Note pad and am copy pasting it now as I post)

At 6.45 PM there is a daily prayer-meditation-general-update session. People gather in the prayer room and first chant a few Marathi Shlokas from the Gitai and this is followed by one Bhajan. Then visitors / interns / fellows are introduced. Dr Bang told everyone about me and about medical librarianship. One person who visited Nagpur for some work was asked to share his experiences with all. An interesting thing that happened was that Dr Rani Bang mentioned that this was the second time in her life that she heard the name Vasumathi, the first being her mother's! Two other interns - Indian students from the US were also asked to speak about themselves.

Dinner was at 8.pm and I actually crashed by 9.30 PM.

Day 1 Observations:
I strongly sensed the passion and purpose amongst all in the campus. The evening prayer session felt like the family of the olden times when there was prayer, meditation, music and bonding and sharing. I cannot help relate the two - I feel that the prayer session keeps feeding the sharing of passion and purpose.

Part 2 - In Shodhgram - Day 1 - next two plus hours

From about 2 pm, I had about some time with Mr Mahesh - head of research. He has a Masters in Statistics and showed me some presentations about the work. SEARCH has been doing for the last so many years. It was incredible seeing how they had data about infant mortality which was far higher than that projected by the government. Not just that - they maintain a census of a population of about 1 lakh people in the Gadchiroli villages, so that they have proper background data about all their health related issues. Mr Mahesh has also created an E-library of several paper documents and articles all by himself. He came across as someone who seemed as passionate about SEARCH as Dr Bang (and family). It is rare to have people like this in any set up, and I simply loved going through his presentations with him!

Then came the first of the moments that I was looking forward to. Some time with Dr Abhay Bang himself. I went to his room and the true host in him asked me if all arrangements were comfortable. I assured him I was fine. And then he asked me for my background and I quickly filled him in. We also discussed Medicon and his question was "Do those students really go ahead with research"? And I said "Well many seem definitely interested. But unless we and the system does something to nurture it, I am not sure how many would go ahead". He listened.

Now came his main question (I almost felt like it were a job interview :>). He asked  "Tell me Vasumathi, what made you come all the way here". I told him that in the last few years, I was constantly on the look out for the answer to the question "How do I make an impact with my skills and the collective skills in QMed". And that when I got to know about his work in the deeper parts of India where people needed healthcare, and where he actually managed awesome research outputs too, I felt the need to explore. I told him that I had come with an open agenda - to see what I could contribute and to see if I could learn to make an additional impact through QMed in more such areas.

I was rewarded with a big smile and Dr Abhay Bang said "It is rare that people get curious and then follow that curiosity. I am really happy that you did and that you have come here. Can we have some sessions for our interns with you? (I of course said an instant yes). And he said he would organize a field visit for me too! Wondering if I would get to meet Kajubai!